I just realized that Blogger has done some upgrading to its features for users. Wow! So advanced.
Will be playing with it for a bit, till I get the hang of it. Don't know estimated completion date.
Do not chase me as I am nasty when chased. Give me time to fiddle around this space.
Thank you for your patience.
-devil from heaven, angel from hell-
Friday, February 27, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
The Decision.
I had a tough time making and saying out the decision yesterday night. I should have told you earlier, I know. I am sorry to have hurt you so badly yesterday. The pain you suffered were transferred equally, if not more, to me.
You woke me up from my negative state and made me realize that your love for me runs deep and strong. It's not something that I don't know already. It was just self-denial that I was circling in.
I have made a promise to both you and myself that I will not be letting go and will never bring the subject up ever again. I cannot imagine my life without you. Motionless, lifeless, headless, clueless, directionless. One word to sum it all - DEAD.
The wee hours wind did not freeze my brain. I had a clear mind and am certain that I will not repeat the mistake. Your actions put me through a trauma and shocked me totally. I could not fathom the consequences if I had let you go.
I just want you to know that I will be your koala bear - clinging onto you, no matter what happens; I will remain unshaken and true.
Love you to bits and pieces, with all my heart. Looking forward to our long journey, together, hand in hand. Eventually walking stick in walking stick.
You woke me up from my negative state and made me realize that your love for me runs deep and strong. It's not something that I don't know already. It was just self-denial that I was circling in.
I have made a promise to both you and myself that I will not be letting go and will never bring the subject up ever again. I cannot imagine my life without you. Motionless, lifeless, headless, clueless, directionless. One word to sum it all - DEAD.
The wee hours wind did not freeze my brain. I had a clear mind and am certain that I will not repeat the mistake. Your actions put me through a trauma and shocked me totally. I could not fathom the consequences if I had let you go.
I just want you to know that I will be your koala bear - clinging onto you, no matter what happens; I will remain unshaken and true.
Love you to bits and pieces, with all my heart. Looking forward to our long journey, together, hand in hand. Eventually walking stick in walking stick.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Tick Tock. Tick Tock.
Gong Xi Fa Cai! Though it's belated, but I always think it's the thoughts that count. CNY 2009 proved to be my happiest and saddest CNY ever.
Happiest because i was thrown back to the secondary school days where we played silly games like 'Masuk' during 'rehat' (recess in Malay). 3rd day of CNY, the gathering was held at my place. Teo & I volunteered to organise the gathering and both of us were novices in BBQ.
On the actual day itself, we were still undecided about the pit. Daddy helped to solve many many many issues. Mummy chipped in. Christine ordered the chicken wings and went to the market early in the morning (7am!!) to pick them up and marinated them for a good 3 hours. Me? Went to my friends' house and looked pretty. :P Such bimbotic trait, except I have no boobies.
Teo & Sarah & I went to get the food only at 4+ in the evening and when we reached my house, Daddy was already starting fire. We had no pit, it was a man-made, natural pit - charcoal laid on a zinc, with bricks and mesh on top. Daddy was fantastic. The trouble he took to go to his friend's factory to attempt to borrow a pit; went to look for a zinc, set up, and he even BBQ for us!! Mummy went to buy ice and even bought a water dispenser purposely for the evening. Helped to clean, pack and unpack, boil water, this and that.
Then I realized that I was not helping at all and to a certain extent, useless. They broke out in sweat yet all I did was to just buy food, laid on table and played the evening away. The moral of the story is, I realize how much my parents love me selflessly. They did everything without a whim, without nagging at me, without dirty glances at me. Nothing. They must have enjoyed themselves very much, too because Shum captured a pic of them (and me; like a happy family) laughing happily.
Daddy even opened his 18-year-old Whisky for Kelly. Tsk tsk. Even I didn't know he had such a treasure. It was really smooth. Aahhhh...
Oh and the attendance was superb. It was at least 20 of us. Plus minus those who left earlier and some latecomers. Shouted like mad women akin to our secondary school days. Played like nobody's business. The world practically stopped for us. Sweet.
Saddest because there were some (extended) family problems and I found out that one of my close relative (relation shall remain undisclosed) has breast cancer on both sides. The relative is going through a rough patch in her life and this had to happen. I was so shocked (jaws wide open) and devastated. If there is anything that I can help, I swear I would!
February marks my first month on the new account (yet, again). It's a different ballgame altogether, at a different pace. Shall embark and enjoy this new journey.
Till next time.
Happiest because i was thrown back to the secondary school days where we played silly games like 'Masuk' during 'rehat' (recess in Malay). 3rd day of CNY, the gathering was held at my place. Teo & I volunteered to organise the gathering and both of us were novices in BBQ.
On the actual day itself, we were still undecided about the pit. Daddy helped to solve many many many issues. Mummy chipped in. Christine ordered the chicken wings and went to the market early in the morning (7am!!) to pick them up and marinated them for a good 3 hours. Me? Went to my friends' house and looked pretty. :P Such bimbotic trait, except I have no boobies.
Teo & Sarah & I went to get the food only at 4+ in the evening and when we reached my house, Daddy was already starting fire. We had no pit, it was a man-made, natural pit - charcoal laid on a zinc, with bricks and mesh on top. Daddy was fantastic. The trouble he took to go to his friend's factory to attempt to borrow a pit; went to look for a zinc, set up, and he even BBQ for us!! Mummy went to buy ice and even bought a water dispenser purposely for the evening. Helped to clean, pack and unpack, boil water, this and that.
Then I realized that I was not helping at all and to a certain extent, useless. They broke out in sweat yet all I did was to just buy food, laid on table and played the evening away. The moral of the story is, I realize how much my parents love me selflessly. They did everything without a whim, without nagging at me, without dirty glances at me. Nothing. They must have enjoyed themselves very much, too because Shum captured a pic of them (and me; like a happy family) laughing happily.
Daddy even opened his 18-year-old Whisky for Kelly. Tsk tsk. Even I didn't know he had such a treasure. It was really smooth. Aahhhh...
Oh and the attendance was superb. It was at least 20 of us. Plus minus those who left earlier and some latecomers. Shouted like mad women akin to our secondary school days. Played like nobody's business. The world practically stopped for us. Sweet.
Saddest because there were some (extended) family problems and I found out that one of my close relative (relation shall remain undisclosed) has breast cancer on both sides. The relative is going through a rough patch in her life and this had to happen. I was so shocked (jaws wide open) and devastated. If there is anything that I can help, I swear I would!
February marks my first month on the new account (yet, again). It's a different ballgame altogether, at a different pace. Shall embark and enjoy this new journey.
Till next time.
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