I am not. I, too do not understand why I am such a junk collector. I have boxes and boxes and more boxes containing my what-nots. One has my notes that brought me through my 3 years. Phew! Another has my shoes, the entire BIG box contain my shoes! Gawd, it didn't strike me that I have so many pairs of shoes till I opened the cover and ta-dah! Another two boxes contain my stationary sets and nonsense. Aiyoh!
Moving house proves to be a tiring chore, especially when you're doing it youself. The whole house is in a mess but it won't be for long. Hope I can unpack fast. I am still waiting for the right table to come along. -_- Can't I design my own table? Urgh! If only money isn't a problem.
Going home tomorrow. Yay!! Yay!!! I'm always happy to be able to go home. Haha! Unless of course, someone calls. I hope she doesn't keep me in suspence for too long. Getting restless.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Sunday, May 29, 2005
The Big "C"
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Exhausted.
Moving house is a tiring thing especially when your nose is not in tip-top condition. The dust, even minute speckles do wonders to my nose. Sneeze, blow, sneeze, blow. Haven't packed everything nicely yet 'coz of the lack of space just yet; since uncle ek is still here. Also, the table which I've yet to decide. A table cost a few hundred bucks, I'm going so broke. There're a couple of garage sale, I've to check it out. Hopefully they're better-priced.
I had two dreams in a row this morning. Creepy. First was that the agency confirmed me and boy, I just wished that was for real! I rejected the offer from the local brand management agency because LB couldn't give me an answer on Thursday itself. The boss from the brand management agency said, "Ok, since you like to take chances, so be it." I'm not looking back and regret my decision. Definitely not my style. Looking forward to next week! =)
Second dream was that he and l was getting married. Huh? I was so perplexed and didn't know how to respond to the supposedly good news. Said he (to l), "You've been with me throughout when I was lonely and in despair. You're the one." What rubbish?! Urgh! But it's an impossible dream because...because of a certain reason lah! Anyway, it's just a dream. I've alway been wondering what it'd be like if things didn't go the way it did. Guess it's all too late.
Anyone knows where to get dream analysis accurately for free? Keyword: free & accurate. ;P I'm so broke that I'm refraining myself from splurging further but it's hard because it's the GSS- Great Singapore Sale!!!
Nice weather and finally nothing on my hands. Can do some packing and finally, a new tagboard!! The previous one had problems and I've to finally admit, eu, that it's lousy and I've changed. -_-
Staying in today and tomorrow to nurse the stupid cold and release the toxin with liquid. Oh, nice windy day!
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Numb.
I'm numb already. They called and said I am shortlisted for the next round of interview with the Associate Account Director (AAD). So, you may ask if I feel excited and happy? No, I don't. Not at all. Could be that I've expected that I'd make it? Or they've made me waited long enough and has numbed all positive feelings? Having come so far, I have decided to give up the job offer I have on hand and bang on the 2 biggies I had interview with. This is a risk that I choose and will bear the consequences myself. Talked to mummy and she has given me the green light. Phew!!
"What's the use if you're not happy working?" True, what's the point then? Think jaswir, you'd be happy to hear that I've alas made progress and went a step further instead of being in square one, lamenting. Of course, I hope you feel better at your side. =)
This nose of mine is getting lousy by day. Can't take dust, can't take cold. Wonder what it's like to be without a nose? Then I can stop sniffing good food and stop adding to my already-laden-with-fats body.
I can't wait. Will be moving house soon. Yay!! At least it's a relief to my mental state of health. I cannot wait to get new table for my room!!
"What's the use if you're not happy working?" True, what's the point then? Think jaswir, you'd be happy to hear that I've alas made progress and went a step further instead of being in square one, lamenting. Of course, I hope you feel better at your side. =)
This nose of mine is getting lousy by day. Can't take dust, can't take cold. Wonder what it's like to be without a nose? Then I can stop sniffing good food and stop adding to my already-laden-with-fats body.
I can't wait. Will be moving house soon. Yay!! At least it's a relief to my mental state of health. I cannot wait to get new table for my room!!
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
From My Heart.
I know you’ve heard these words a hundred other times before
And you’ve been hurting so your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart and brought you lies
Look in my eyes, you’ll see a love that’s deep and true
Tender and strong and all for you
You can trust this love
Honest, that’s the honest truth.
From the heart I’m giving you everything, everything
From the heart. I promise you that I’ll be there
I’ll be there to love you
From the soul I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is,
From the heart, from the heart
I will protect you and respect you and be all you need
And when you reach for love you only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down
They’re staying around
I’ll walk with you through every storm
I’ll keep you safe I’ll keep you warm
And you’ll have no doubt you’re the one I’m living for.
I’ll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch, believe in me
I’ll never make you cry
Give it all I got, with all I’ve got inside.
Monday, May 23, 2005
Not for the Faint Hearts.
Whenever I go home, I'll most probably busy resting and put blogging at a hiatus. I do have the intention to write but laziness just got the better out of me.
Alas, I visited him on Saturday afternoon. Fulfilled my promise. ling was saying it's been 5 years, how time flies. Uh huh, I agree.
Saturday evening was family outing to the fun fair (yes, BP has fun fair) and I must say I shan't impose a "Fear Factor" on myself in future. The "Air Force" ride scared the hell out of me. The girl beside me must be puzzled because I didn't scream as normal people would have. I was busy gasping for air. I thought I'd have a heart attack up there. Yeah, up there. We were thrown left, right, center and for a while, I thought I was going to be flung out. At the same time, I had to worry about the twins, in case they were flung out too, especially Victoria who's extremely thin. It's a bad dare I gave myself.
I hate, absolutely detest watching my team ending matches in penalty shootouts. I tell you why. One, I've to spend the time worrying about them and most importantly, they always tend to lose on penalty. Urgh! The same goes to watching the match stretch to ExtraTime. All these meant I've to spend another 45 minutes agonizing and worrying about MU. Best thing is, Arsenal won. Can't imagine how furious I got with Scholes!! So angry, I am loss for words. And the nincompoop got to be at the match and went on ranting about it. How unfair! jas, let's save enough money and go UK first! Hmmph!
But it was a nice feeling to be able to curse & swear at your team after missing the action for about 3 years. Reminiscing the days when we were so caught up in footie mania, 2am or 4am, not a problem. I'd creep down and make sure I get to stay for the entire match without getting caught! ;)
The most memorable had to be in May 1999 when they won the Treble. Tsk tsk. During that time, we were so fanatic and I remembered we were with MU all the way, man! Never missed an important match. Still remember eu was so happy when she opened a Coke to celebrate.
I missed those times!! Baby-faced assassin, Teddy the bear, Stam who should grow some hair to cushion the ball proper and the list goes on. When MU scores, either mine or eu's house phone will ring. Half-time, full-time, we'll call each other to curse & swear or praise the team. Ahh...those were the times.
Sunday afternoon was out with maddie jabir (how she's going to skin me). Her driving skills + sense of direction makes her a total flop driver!! :P jas, I know you're reading this but you should know by now that I am brutally honest! Sitting in her car is definitely not for the faint hearts! Lala~ We talked about the old times, the present and the future. Didn't strike me that the culture she lives in is so out of the norm and it's tough being in her religion. Though we were friends so dinosaur years, I was not aware of that till recently.
Right, it's lunchtime now. Better fill up my stomach before mustering my courage to face yet another stressful day tomorrow.
Alas, I visited him on Saturday afternoon. Fulfilled my promise. ling was saying it's been 5 years, how time flies. Uh huh, I agree.
Saturday evening was family outing to the fun fair (yes, BP has fun fair) and I must say I shan't impose a "Fear Factor" on myself in future. The "Air Force" ride scared the hell out of me. The girl beside me must be puzzled because I didn't scream as normal people would have. I was busy gasping for air. I thought I'd have a heart attack up there. Yeah, up there. We were thrown left, right, center and for a while, I thought I was going to be flung out. At the same time, I had to worry about the twins, in case they were flung out too, especially Victoria who's extremely thin. It's a bad dare I gave myself.
I hate, absolutely detest watching my team ending matches in penalty shootouts. I tell you why. One, I've to spend the time worrying about them and most importantly, they always tend to lose on penalty. Urgh! The same goes to watching the match stretch to ExtraTime. All these meant I've to spend another 45 minutes agonizing and worrying about MU. Best thing is, Arsenal won. Can't imagine how furious I got with Scholes!! So angry, I am loss for words. And the nincompoop got to be at the match and went on ranting about it. How unfair! jas, let's save enough money and go UK first! Hmmph!
But it was a nice feeling to be able to curse & swear at your team after missing the action for about 3 years. Reminiscing the days when we were so caught up in footie mania, 2am or 4am, not a problem. I'd creep down and make sure I get to stay for the entire match without getting caught! ;)
The most memorable had to be in May 1999 when they won the Treble. Tsk tsk. During that time, we were so fanatic and I remembered we were with MU all the way, man! Never missed an important match. Still remember eu was so happy when she opened a Coke to celebrate.
I missed those times!! Baby-faced assassin, Teddy the bear, Stam who should grow some hair to cushion the ball proper and the list goes on. When MU scores, either mine or eu's house phone will ring. Half-time, full-time, we'll call each other to curse & swear or praise the team. Ahh...those were the times.
Sunday afternoon was out with maddie jabir (how she's going to skin me). Her driving skills + sense of direction makes her a total flop driver!! :P jas, I know you're reading this but you should know by now that I am brutally honest! Sitting in her car is definitely not for the faint hearts! Lala~ We talked about the old times, the present and the future. Didn't strike me that the culture she lives in is so out of the norm and it's tough being in her religion. Though we were friends so dinosaur years, I was not aware of that till recently.
Right, it's lunchtime now. Better fill up my stomach before mustering my courage to face yet another stressful day tomorrow.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Bad.
I figure by the end of this month, I am not getting anymore jittery at interviews. All will be smooth and confident. I sound proud but I've been to quite a number of interviews and the answers given are quite standard. Same for questions asked. ping told me about opening here so I sent in my resume yesterday evening immediately when I got home. And voila! Interview this morning and so I went. Not like what I expected and the GM gladly explained to me what they do and they're different from IF, KL.
I got an offer from a brand management company but pushed for time whilst I wait for my desired job at the desired agency. Latest deadline is Thursday. Reject/ accept pretty much depends on them or them. I know, I am such a biatch. If you get an offer, just go, blardy tart! But hey, THIS is MY and I will run my own life. I need not care about what you think is right because that is your thinking. Nothing to do with me. Plus, I have the support from family and those who matters. So 'nuff.
Lunch with kor at the Italian restaurant alongside Bakerz Inn at PS. Talked about the old issues and about late grandpa. I thought I've come in term with his departure but when we started talking, the memories brought tears to my eyes. I realized that grandpa is the BEST in the world. No one can be compared to him. I miss him terribly now.
Dinner with the members tonight at Lemongrass, Heeren. Going broke, very very broke. But alas, I'm going home tomorrow. Weeee!!! Ode to the food at home, ode to everything! Haha! Going to feast when I go back. Going to pamper myself, too. Most probably facial with jen on Saturday. I need a haircut too! I love home! Who doesn't anyway!!
BP, here I come!!
I got an offer from a brand management company but pushed for time whilst I wait for my desired job at the desired agency. Latest deadline is Thursday. Reject/ accept pretty much depends on them or them. I know, I am such a biatch. If you get an offer, just go, blardy tart! But hey, THIS is MY and I will run my own life. I need not care about what you think is right because that is your thinking. Nothing to do with me. Plus, I have the support from family and those who matters. So 'nuff.
Lunch with kor at the Italian restaurant alongside Bakerz Inn at PS. Talked about the old issues and about late grandpa. I thought I've come in term with his departure but when we started talking, the memories brought tears to my eyes. I realized that grandpa is the BEST in the world. No one can be compared to him. I miss him terribly now.
Dinner with the members tonight at Lemongrass, Heeren. Going broke, very very broke. But alas, I'm going home tomorrow. Weeee!!! Ode to the food at home, ode to everything! Haha! Going to feast when I go back. Going to pamper myself, too. Most probably facial with jen on Saturday. I need a haircut too! I love home! Who doesn't anyway!!
BP, here I come!!
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Never Ever.
My computer hard disk space is running low. Very low. A few hundred mb left. Thanks to my heavy downloading habit and apparently 6G ain't 'nuff. Not satisfying. Wait till my computer man knows of this, he'll never want to service me again!
Got a call from one of the interviewers this morning. More like wake up call. The brand communications agency is very happy to have me in there. Hurh, so you say so. But am I happy? I wasn't even feeling excited. At all. You know, not even near. In fact, a tad disappointed. I can never get satisfied till the agency that I want tells me that either I'm rejected or gotten the job. Shit, I should camp outside their office to tell them how badly I want to work for them. jas, when is your hunch coming??
Mum asked me to give them a call tomorrow and meanwhile, stall for time with the brand communications agency. I asked mum if she and dad thinks that I should get down proper and get a job ASAP. "NO la!" Whoa! That certainly gave me assurance that I have my family supporting me in my decisions. I'm so happy and relieved to know that. Even Daddy hopes that I get into the big brother. :D Thanks, dad!
I don't know when I will settle down for a job. I am having doubts myself. I can stall for time, but how long can I wait? My mind is in a lost. Worst than ever; but I know my parents are always behind me. I really appreciate it and I feel homesick. All of a sudden.
Another interview with formul8 tomorrow at Shenton Way. Whoa! Finallly I can realize my dream a little- go Shenton Way for a purpose. Hee hee. Even though it doesn't mean going there for work.
Meeting yee shan and tracy for Subway at Holland V later. I ate proper lunch and later, Subway. pw said, "Eat, eat eat and grow fat!" Thanks huh, cellmate! Thanks also for being my listening ear.
I don't know what's going to happen to me in even a weeks' time. I fear for the worst. Will talk to Daddy tonight and hope to come to a conclusion. If possible, I'd want to risk rejecting the current job offer and go according to jaswir's and my own hunch. jaswir, are you confident on this not huh? We two poor things, going through rough patches together, hope that doesn't decrease our level of accuracy!
I feel like an ant, in the midst of the massive jungle. I need someone to pick me up and place me somewhere I want to be. But that's not going to happen. I need time and courage to get up and get out of it myself. Be brave!
You mean the world to me. You are my everything. Can you hear? I doubt so.
The sun is definitely there, behind the clouds. It's a matter of time before it reveals itself. Be brave, sy. Be patient, sy. Hang on!!
Got a call from one of the interviewers this morning. More like wake up call. The brand communications agency is very happy to have me in there. Hurh, so you say so. But am I happy? I wasn't even feeling excited. At all. You know, not even near. In fact, a tad disappointed. I can never get satisfied till the agency that I want tells me that either I'm rejected or gotten the job. Shit, I should camp outside their office to tell them how badly I want to work for them. jas, when is your hunch coming??
Mum asked me to give them a call tomorrow and meanwhile, stall for time with the brand communications agency. I asked mum if she and dad thinks that I should get down proper and get a job ASAP. "NO la!" Whoa! That certainly gave me assurance that I have my family supporting me in my decisions. I'm so happy and relieved to know that. Even Daddy hopes that I get into the big brother. :D Thanks, dad!
I don't know when I will settle down for a job. I am having doubts myself. I can stall for time, but how long can I wait? My mind is in a lost. Worst than ever; but I know my parents are always behind me. I really appreciate it and I feel homesick. All of a sudden.
Another interview with formul8 tomorrow at Shenton Way. Whoa! Finallly I can realize my dream a little- go Shenton Way for a purpose. Hee hee. Even though it doesn't mean going there for work.
Meeting yee shan and tracy for Subway at Holland V later. I ate proper lunch and later, Subway. pw said, "Eat, eat eat and grow fat!" Thanks huh, cellmate! Thanks also for being my listening ear.
I don't know what's going to happen to me in even a weeks' time. I fear for the worst. Will talk to Daddy tonight and hope to come to a conclusion. If possible, I'd want to risk rejecting the current job offer and go according to jaswir's and my own hunch. jaswir, are you confident on this not huh? We two poor things, going through rough patches together, hope that doesn't decrease our level of accuracy!
I feel like an ant, in the midst of the massive jungle. I need someone to pick me up and place me somewhere I want to be. But that's not going to happen. I need time and courage to get up and get out of it myself. Be brave!
You mean the world to me. You are my everything. Can you hear? I doubt so.
The sun is definitely there, behind the clouds. It's a matter of time before it reveals itself. Be brave, sy. Be patient, sy. Hang on!!
Monday, May 16, 2005
Crippled and Defeated.
My deficiency in Mandarin has done me in this time. I can speak but can't write and read. So I am crippled. Rejected outright. "In this world, now, no one can say they don't know Chinese except the English. Even then, a lot of English are picking up the language." Just as well that they're honest. However, I feel defeated and my confidence deflated accordingly. What a start to the week.
Wanted to drop by Plaza Singapura for some retail therapy and self-pampering session but that wouldn't do my bank account and wallet good. Plus, looking at my toenails (what toenails?!), they seem hopeless for pedicure.
In then end, splurged on food. 2 waffles, Fruitree Apple & Aloe Vera and Pringles. All under $10 and most importantly, it's as good as retail therapy. Only difference: didn't do much damage to wallet.
Meanwhile, I am still hopelessly hopeful for the reply from them. Am I asking for a beating?
Forlorn and depressed.
Wanted to drop by Plaza Singapura for some retail therapy and self-pampering session but that wouldn't do my bank account and wallet good. Plus, looking at my toenails (what toenails?!), they seem hopeless for pedicure.
In then end, splurged on food. 2 waffles, Fruitree Apple & Aloe Vera and Pringles. All under $10 and most importantly, it's as good as retail therapy. Only difference: didn't do much damage to wallet.
Meanwhile, I am still hopelessly hopeful for the reply from them. Am I asking for a beating?
Forlorn and depressed.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Standing at the Crossroad. I need you not.
Didn't go bowling with the boys (yet to be men) because I felt like rotting today. Told zhiggy the exact truth and he understands. Long-time friends need not be bothered about little things. So nice. Hehe. He's been great encourager when I was down. Didn't despise me. Thanks, dude!
Some many not agree to me rejecting my job offer for the Media Sales Exec job. What can I say but THIS is my life and I choose to lead it. Not you. I respect and understand your views so please accept my stand. I need no one going around influecing others to take your side. Pooh!
Standing at the middle of a crossroad. Unsure of my directions. There are only 4 options: left, right, straight or back. Having come so far, there's no turning back for me and I won't. No way! Left/ right? No, that would be when I've strayed. So straight. Keep charging ahead and I will get to where I want to be.
Important to be in high spirits now since I am doing nothing. Not even actively sending applications. There're not many jobs out there that is relevant mah. Cannot blame me. :P
Looking forward to cut6 FULL reunion next Friday, at Boat Quay. Meet at Clarke Quay MRT station. pw, I'm sure I got it right now.
Ooh! Before I forgot, it's my buddy's 22nd today! A year older, have fun! Love you all the same, my ninipoop. :D
Friday, May 13, 2005
Unlucky? You decide.
"Friday 13th today. People step on shit, you know." That was part of zhiggy's sms to me today. Thanks, huh! But I don't believe in superstitions just like I don't believe in self-improvement books like "100 Ways to Motivate Yourself". Crap! Rubbish! I think your day is what you make out of it.
Town with tracy today. Didn't realize it's Friday till we saw the sea of people. Got a little affected due to the crowd but retail therapy certainly works! tracy got her sweater and pashmina and I got my top and bottom, at a reasonable price. :)) The more I look at them, the more satisfied and happy I get. Wahaha!! Felt I got good bargain. So did tracy with her purchases. So tell me, are Fridays, the 13th bad days?
Hush Puppies shoes are on sale!! Wanted to get the pink slip-ons which I've thought been cute and sweet. Only for SGD25!! Isn't that cheap for a pair of Hush Puppies? But rational got the better of me and eventually dropped the idea. I don't need a pair of slippers. Yet. The x:odus is still wearable. Wait till it wears off. I've to learn to save money. I am spending before earning. I'm bad.
Tomorrow should be bowling with zhiggy and fabs. fabs die die want to go Great World. Wonder what's the real reason behind that. Drill him tomorrow!! The boys are turning into men in August. Time flies when you least expect it.
Interview on Monday at Geylang. I am also questioning the location of the agency.
Town with tracy today. Didn't realize it's Friday till we saw the sea of people. Got a little affected due to the crowd but retail therapy certainly works! tracy got her sweater and pashmina and I got my top and bottom, at a reasonable price. :)) The more I look at them, the more satisfied and happy I get. Wahaha!! Felt I got good bargain. So did tracy with her purchases. So tell me, are Fridays, the 13th bad days?
Hush Puppies shoes are on sale!! Wanted to get the pink slip-ons which I've thought been cute and sweet. Only for SGD25!! Isn't that cheap for a pair of Hush Puppies? But rational got the better of me and eventually dropped the idea. I don't need a pair of slippers. Yet. The x:odus is still wearable. Wait till it wears off. I've to learn to save money. I am spending before earning. I'm bad.
Tomorrow should be bowling with zhiggy and fabs. fabs die die want to go Great World. Wonder what's the real reason behind that. Drill him tomorrow!! The boys are turning into men in August. Time flies when you least expect it.
Interview on Monday at Geylang. I am also questioning the location of the agency.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
Could I have been reading too much into that one small question pertaining smoking? Probably. Don't worry so much. Thanks jo, thanks fy, thanks for those who've heard my diarrhea about this issue. Like I've said, I haven't seen the light anywhere yet. I ain't convinced (enough). Heck, not like they are confirming me or anything. So take it as it goes. If they do want me, I'll make sure I do well and enjoy it, the healthy way. :)
Today was rotting-at-home day. Feels good minus the stupid candle wax had to spill over the tabletop, onto books, floor and stained a bit on the sockets. Wanted to make my way down to Ang Mo Kio and Yishun but laziness got the better out of me.
I need cash!! Hurrr... Someone, anyone!! If you're reading this post and kind enough, write me a cheque. I want a computer table, I want a bedside drawer, I want a nice comfy chair, I want tops, I want skirts, I want bottoms, I want... the list is endless. Sighs, when there's nothing I want, it's absolutely zilch. But when the time comes, the list never stops. Is this normal?
Today was rotting-at-home day. Feels good minus the stupid candle wax had to spill over the tabletop, onto books, floor and stained a bit on the sockets. Wanted to make my way down to Ang Mo Kio and Yishun but laziness got the better out of me.
I need cash!! Hurrr... Someone, anyone!! If you're reading this post and kind enough, write me a cheque. I want a computer table, I want a bedside drawer, I want a nice comfy chair, I want tops, I want skirts, I want bottoms, I want... the list is endless. Sighs, when there's nothing I want, it's absolutely zilch. But when the time comes, the list never stops. Is this normal?
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Where is the Light?
A friend always close to my heart called me whilst I was in a mad frenzy looking for furniture at Ikea this afternoon. What she told me brightened up my day but at the same time, made me helluva disappointed with what I am after. I don't just say this because I want a job in the industry but I say this because I truly mean it:
I have passion for the advertising industry. I love it! But...must we smoke in order to be "alive and kicking" in this business? Do we? Tell me, if that is one deciding factor about me, I am truly disappointed in you. Why, is it that important that I smoke so that I can get along with people? I am at a loss now. I don't know why. Enlighten me, my dear friends. Please do. I don't see the light anywhere near me. Yet. That is why I am pondering and disappointed with the business.
When I am in stress and duress, I will be easily influenced to smoke? What kind of logic is that? I know when I binge and munch when I am stressed out is not very healthy but at least I don't shorten my life by a couple of years for every few ciggies I take in.
I'm walking in the dark now; feeling my way around; hoping to see THE light ahead of me so that I will be lost no longer. Lead me there.
I have passion for the advertising industry. I love it! But...must we smoke in order to be "alive and kicking" in this business? Do we? Tell me, if that is one deciding factor about me, I am truly disappointed in you. Why, is it that important that I smoke so that I can get along with people? I am at a loss now. I don't know why. Enlighten me, my dear friends. Please do. I don't see the light anywhere near me. Yet. That is why I am pondering and disappointed with the business.
When I am in stress and duress, I will be easily influenced to smoke? What kind of logic is that? I know when I binge and munch when I am stressed out is not very healthy but at least I don't shorten my life by a couple of years for every few ciggies I take in.
I'm walking in the dark now; feeling my way around; hoping to see THE light ahead of me so that I will be lost no longer. Lead me there.
As Good As It Gets
First time was bad performance. Second time was better, more composed. The third was my best, I felt. I am feeling fortunate the third interview was with the BIG agency. I've gathered some experiences and the session was better than what I expected. Turns out one of my seniors is working there as an AE. After the Head of Account Management spoke to me, my senior came in and we chatted. She mentioned that the HOD has positive impression of me. Thank God!
I left the office, feeling good. Better than the previous ones. I am positive this is what I am looking for. IF shortlisted, I will be working on a certain account. The training provided is just what I am looking for. My first two years will be hell but I am prepared. Never been so sure of myself. Never been so certain of something that I want.
ping mentioned that I always have a very earnest look and it's to my advantage. Didn't know I had that kind of look till ping pointed out. Hehe! Thanks, ping!! I guess it helps; quite a fair bit. :DI shan't say much about the interview session anymore.
Met up with tracy after that. Dinner at Mos Burger and I was wondering if I have changed since graduation. I sensed that there is change in me- I have become more full of myself and so confident. I am too ambitious, or I am just over-sensitive? Am I like a lion with BIG appetite? I am confused. I think I have become shrewd. I don't know. I am confused!! jaswir, eu; I think you both know me best inside out, left and right. Tell me!!
It was House Of Wax after dinner. The movie was not as scary I made it out. Perhaps I get no kick out of horror films anymore. The girls sitting in front of us were scared to wits. Screaming and whispering was so irritating! I shan't divulge their nationality. (pw, you should know. hehe ;P)
Right, I should get ready. Meeting tracy for another shopping session. Like we both have lots of extra cash! Haha fact is we are both broke but needed a break from everything!!
I left the office, feeling good. Better than the previous ones. I am positive this is what I am looking for. IF shortlisted, I will be working on a certain account. The training provided is just what I am looking for. My first two years will be hell but I am prepared. Never been so sure of myself. Never been so certain of something that I want.
ping mentioned that I always have a very earnest look and it's to my advantage. Didn't know I had that kind of look till ping pointed out. Hehe! Thanks, ping!! I guess it helps; quite a fair bit. :DI shan't say much about the interview session anymore.
Met up with tracy after that. Dinner at Mos Burger and I was wondering if I have changed since graduation. I sensed that there is change in me- I have become more full of myself and so confident. I am too ambitious, or I am just over-sensitive? Am I like a lion with BIG appetite? I am confused. I think I have become shrewd. I don't know. I am confused!! jaswir, eu; I think you both know me best inside out, left and right. Tell me!!
It was House Of Wax after dinner. The movie was not as scary I made it out. Perhaps I get no kick out of horror films anymore. The girls sitting in front of us were scared to wits. Screaming and whispering was so irritating! I shan't divulge their nationality. (pw, you should know. hehe ;P)
Right, I should get ready. Meeting tracy for another shopping session. Like we both have lots of extra cash! Haha fact is we are both broke but needed a break from everything!!
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Past Few Days
Went back home for the weekend and when I returned, my tagboard was alive! Hahaha! This gives me enough motivation to blog. Anyway, I went back home for the weekend and this were the updates for the 3 days that I went missing.
Thursday: Went for interview with this agency. I went in and she surely have very good memory, remembering that I was sitting on her right during the Post-IP lunch reception. She actually said, "I've seen you before right? During the lunch, you were sitting on my right!" This shows what good memory she possess. Scary, sometimes. Anyway, I went in, we chatted as if she was my old friend. We talked about my origin, my family size and to my ultimate goal in life: open a bakery of my own. We even talked about baking. Gosh, I think this is going to be down the drain. Some of my answers were so vague she had to repeat her questions. Will get the outcome early this week. My performance is scaring me for the upcoming one on Tuesday. Oh, and the MD asked, "Don't you think you're kiasu, going into job market now when everyone is taking a break?" Hello, how not to be kiasu when I am surrounded by kiasu locals?? :P
It was followed by mini-reunion and dinner with cut6; minus super editor and minah. In the midst of deciding where to have our dinner, call from the company that I went interview as media sales rep. I got shortlisted; ie I got the job offer. Wanted my immediate reply. I rejected them. (Feels damn great to be able to reject, ok! ;P) But it was after much consideration. It's not what I really want to do and not the exposure that I want. I want to work on FMCGs (Fast Moving Consumer Goods) and dynamic acocunts that I spend most of my time in office, even to the extent of camping overnight. Call me mad but I like this. Could be that I have age on my side, I can still "pia".
Friday: On the journey home, it then dawned to me that it's been 5 whole months since I went home by bus. I didn't become more appreciative of bus journey. In fact, I dreaded it. Nevertheless, boy, it certainly felt gooddddddd to be home again. :))
Saturday: Someone from an ad agency (recommendation from Her Highness) called and asked to see me. I told him that I am now out of Singapore and I asked if we could meet next week but he's going away to KL for project. He asked me a little about me over the phone: "Are you married?" [(?!!!?) because he heard children at the background.] and "What do you think are your strengths?" Hope he remembers to call me to make an appointment this week. In the afternoon, down with sinus. Serious one. The BP gang had "lim teh" session which I had to miss simply because I could not stop sneezing and gradually, my eyes were tearing like I was weeping hard.
Sunday: Mother's Day but I did not buy anything, did not do anything, did not with the 2 mothers, even. Did not slip off my mind but I felt that my presence and my company is good enough. OK, whack me for being lazy and unthoughtful. But hey, do you only shower your mum with love and concern only on Mother's Day? Hell, no, I hope!!
I'm at aunt sp's place. I dreaded returning to her place because of the numerous issues we had. Don't want to talk about it, no point talking about it anyway. I feel sad and stressed here but all these will be gone in about 3 weeks' time when I move into uncle ek's place. I cannot wait.
Right, I've to do some research on tomorrow's agency and tuck-in early. Trying to keep myself in high spirits.
Thursday: Went for interview with this agency. I went in and she surely have very good memory, remembering that I was sitting on her right during the Post-IP lunch reception. She actually said, "I've seen you before right? During the lunch, you were sitting on my right!" This shows what good memory she possess. Scary, sometimes. Anyway, I went in, we chatted as if she was my old friend. We talked about my origin, my family size and to my ultimate goal in life: open a bakery of my own. We even talked about baking. Gosh, I think this is going to be down the drain. Some of my answers were so vague she had to repeat her questions. Will get the outcome early this week. My performance is scaring me for the upcoming one on Tuesday. Oh, and the MD asked, "Don't you think you're kiasu, going into job market now when everyone is taking a break?" Hello, how not to be kiasu when I am surrounded by kiasu locals?? :P
It was followed by mini-reunion and dinner with cut6; minus super editor and minah. In the midst of deciding where to have our dinner, call from the company that I went interview as media sales rep. I got shortlisted; ie I got the job offer. Wanted my immediate reply. I rejected them. (Feels damn great to be able to reject, ok! ;P) But it was after much consideration. It's not what I really want to do and not the exposure that I want. I want to work on FMCGs (Fast Moving Consumer Goods) and dynamic acocunts that I spend most of my time in office, even to the extent of camping overnight. Call me mad but I like this. Could be that I have age on my side, I can still "pia".
Friday: On the journey home, it then dawned to me that it's been 5 whole months since I went home by bus. I didn't become more appreciative of bus journey. In fact, I dreaded it. Nevertheless, boy, it certainly felt gooddddddd to be home again. :))
Saturday: Someone from an ad agency (recommendation from Her Highness) called and asked to see me. I told him that I am now out of Singapore and I asked if we could meet next week but he's going away to KL for project. He asked me a little about me over the phone: "Are you married?" [(?!!!?) because he heard children at the background.] and "What do you think are your strengths?" Hope he remembers to call me to make an appointment this week. In the afternoon, down with sinus. Serious one. The BP gang had "lim teh" session which I had to miss simply because I could not stop sneezing and gradually, my eyes were tearing like I was weeping hard.
Sunday: Mother's Day but I did not buy anything, did not do anything, did not with the 2 mothers, even. Did not slip off my mind but I felt that my presence and my company is good enough. OK, whack me for being lazy and unthoughtful. But hey, do you only shower your mum with love and concern only on Mother's Day? Hell, no, I hope!!
I'm at aunt sp's place. I dreaded returning to her place because of the numerous issues we had. Don't want to talk about it, no point talking about it anyway. I feel sad and stressed here but all these will be gone in about 3 weeks' time when I move into uncle ek's place. I cannot wait.
Right, I've to do some research on tomorrow's agency and tuck-in early. Trying to keep myself in high spirits.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
High, High, HIGH
Got awaken by the constant vibration of my silenced phone this morning. Could not be a sms; when I saw an unknown number, it did not strike me that it'd be a call for interview. Speaking with my just-woke-up voice, I scrambled around looking for a piece of paper to jot down the details. Only to discover 5 minutes after hanging up, I forgot to note the time. Lucky my brain cells remained active for that short period and I quickly jot down: 9.30am. Morning this time, yes. What I have been wanting but the thought of waking up early shuns me. I need practise. Oh, this is for the position of AE in a brand communications agency, a contact gotten from dear ol' Mr Ang. Thanks, Andrew! :P
About 45 minutes later, I got another call. Unknown land line number, I got more cautious this time. Guess who? This one!! The Singapore office. GREAT! I was so elated, I jumped and screamed around after hanging up. Appointment on Tuesday evening, 6pm. Yes, it's late but give me more time to pump the confidence juice into my brain. Yes, I want the top dollar. I am not shy to admit. I also want to soar high up in the industry. I want to make big bucks, be a top-notch leading advertising woman. Ok, time to get back to reality. Nevertheless, I want to be (in ziggy's words) "the eagle soaring high up in the sky". In a nutshell, dare to dream for that is what pushes you forward. Dream Big.
Sky's dark here, I presume a heavy rainpour. Which is a bad sign as I have to get out of the house by 4pm to go for the 5pm interview. Wish me luck, again. Searching for the place yesterday with fy and her friend was tedious. Teaches me NEVER to recky the place on the day of your interview.
ALWAYS go a day (at least) before your scheduled time. You can be a big big sweaty goofball while you are searching for the place. BUT NEVER be a sweaty interviewee. You don't want to interview a sweaty candidate too, do you? Always put yourself in the other party's shoes.
Despite the fact that it's time to prepare for the interview, I am still here blogging. Shows how much of a procrastinator I am.
Meeting fy, pw and lq for dinner in town later. cut6 mini reunion minus minah and super-editor.
I'm out of here. =)
About 45 minutes later, I got another call. Unknown land line number, I got more cautious this time. Guess who? This one!! The Singapore office. GREAT! I was so elated, I jumped and screamed around after hanging up. Appointment on Tuesday evening, 6pm. Yes, it's late but give me more time to pump the confidence juice into my brain. Yes, I want the top dollar. I am not shy to admit. I also want to soar high up in the industry. I want to make big bucks, be a top-notch leading advertising woman. Ok, time to get back to reality. Nevertheless, I want to be (in ziggy's words) "the eagle soaring high up in the sky". In a nutshell, dare to dream for that is what pushes you forward. Dream Big.
Sky's dark here, I presume a heavy rainpour. Which is a bad sign as I have to get out of the house by 4pm to go for the 5pm interview. Wish me luck, again. Searching for the place yesterday with fy and her friend was tedious. Teaches me NEVER to recky the place on the day of your interview.
ALWAYS go a day (at least) before your scheduled time. You can be a big big sweaty goofball while you are searching for the place. BUT NEVER be a sweaty interviewee. You don't want to interview a sweaty candidate too, do you? Always put yourself in the other party's shoes.
Despite the fact that it's time to prepare for the interview, I am still here blogging. Shows how much of a procrastinator I am.
Meeting fy, pw and lq for dinner in town later. cut6 mini reunion minus minah and super-editor.
I'm out of here. =)
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Expensive!!
Indeed, if it wasn't upon pw's prompt that Cathay did not up its ticket price, I'd have missed the interview (on Friday.) Went online to search for the movie time for a movie and I saw the date stating "Thusday, 5/5". I was so puzzled, thought perhaps they (what audacity, you say) made a mistake. So I took a look again and double-checked with the date system on my machine. Indeed, today is the 4th May, Wednesday. Tomorrow is 5th May, Thursday. What a klutz!
Expensive price to pay for my oblivion. Been muddled by the days and dates and thought that 5th May is this Friday. My, oh my! Imagine if I had carried on with the blunder, I'd have missed a great chance. What can I say but be less oblivious (yes, cellmate!) and more alert? ;P
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I don't know why you always like to disappoint me and subsequently lead to my disappointment in the human league. When you need me, I never fail to be there. Where are you when I need you? You give me countless excuses that I am so so tired of hearing. Please come out with something more creative. If you don't feel like, just say so. I always think honesty is the best policy. Really.
If I can be brutally honest, I can take it from others too. It works two way. You are so capable of bringing me to a high high position and let me fall, one shot all the way down. Pain has numbed. It has turned to disappointment. Thank you for letting me experience the bitter sweet side.
Expensive price to pay for my oblivion. Been muddled by the days and dates and thought that 5th May is this Friday. My, oh my! Imagine if I had carried on with the blunder, I'd have missed a great chance. What can I say but be less oblivious (yes, cellmate!) and more alert? ;P
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I don't know why you always like to disappoint me and subsequently lead to my disappointment in the human league. When you need me, I never fail to be there. Where are you when I need you? You give me countless excuses that I am so so tired of hearing. Please come out with something more creative. If you don't feel like, just say so. I always think honesty is the best policy. Really.
If I can be brutally honest, I can take it from others too. It works two way. You are so capable of bringing me to a high high position and let me fall, one shot all the way down. Pain has numbed. It has turned to disappointment. Thank you for letting me experience the bitter sweet side.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Pleased.
Interview was alright. I think it's a 50-50 chance, given my zilch experience. The boss interviewed 3 candidates (including me) together because he is short of time. *slaps forehead* Anyway, the job is commission-based and I was stupid enough not to ask whether do I still get a basic. Will be notified if I am short-listed by tomorrow or latest, Thursday. Nothing impressive (sorry, ping & doris! ;P) except that he made his company sound REAL good and the prospects so bright. Only drawback is that it's commission-based. Heck. He says he takes after the Silicon Valley style in US, bla bla bla.
Went to uncle ek's place for dinner. So happy to see the grandparents again and I miss their pamper!! Haha! I am still a girl, you know! Came back and opened my mail.
Guess what? Another email confirming my interview time this Friday, 5pm! :D For the AE position at this company. Contact from Mr Ang. I was so happy that I jumped up and down. Hee hee!! 5pm is very much later than today's 3.15 and I was feeling restless today, waiting for the time to come and get ready.
Perhaps should recky the place tomorrow since it's going to be in the middle of nowhere, but somewhere! Confusing ah! I am happy like a pig and missing out on my CSI on Channel 5!!
Went to uncle ek's place for dinner. So happy to see the grandparents again and I miss their pamper!! Haha! I am still a girl, you know! Came back and opened my mail.
Guess what? Another email confirming my interview time this Friday, 5pm! :D For the AE position at this company. Contact from Mr Ang. I was so happy that I jumped up and down. Hee hee!! 5pm is very much later than today's 3.15 and I was feeling restless today, waiting for the time to come and get ready.
Perhaps should recky the place tomorrow since it's going to be in the middle of nowhere, but somewhere! Confusing ah! I am happy like a pig and missing out on my CSI on Channel 5!!
Monday, May 02, 2005
Random Diarrhoea.
I am such a no-life person. Realized that I can stay home all day, without leaving the house. Not even downstairs to get my meals. The thought of this shudders me. Am I such a less likeable person? Thoughts are running wild because I haven't a clear head since it's congested with my flu. Alright, save the details, you say.
Meditarranean buffet became Sushi Tei instead. No, I am not complaining since that was my first choice. Hearty meal, heary dessert too. Was a happy klutz for an evening.
To the beach yesterday for first-time lesson but the rain did not spare us. Sighs! And auntie sp had the cheek to promote the guy working at the blade shop. He's not even good-looking, as compared to him!! :P Also, he smokes. *shakes head*
Why do youngsters nowadays want to tarnish their lives by smoking? If you love sport and want to compete internationally so much, you should know that smoking will not bring you anywhere.
Meditarranean buffet became Sushi Tei instead. No, I am not complaining since that was my first choice. Hearty meal, heary dessert too. Was a happy klutz for an evening.
To the beach yesterday for first-time lesson but the rain did not spare us. Sighs! And auntie sp had the cheek to promote the guy working at the blade shop. He's not even good-looking, as compared to him!! :P Also, he smokes. *shakes head*
Why do youngsters nowadays want to tarnish their lives by smoking? If you love sport and want to compete internationally so much, you should know that smoking will not bring you anywhere.
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