Stagnance.

I need to seriously review myself in 2 aspects - work and personal life. Actually, I don't have many aspects in my life. I realize that my love for my work is dead. I don't know how and don't know when it started. I was chatting to the customer service person from SPH and I realized I'm just here. Not moving forward and not falling back (thankfully).

I think I need a break from work. Need to seriously recharge. Need a real getaway from the hustle bustle of office and from clients. Need to not think and worry about anything for the time being. Don't tell me that I just came back from a holiday in KL. For your info, that is more like a shopping trip and like it or not, shopping trips are stressful.

I feel lost. Shit.

My Firsts.

There were many firsts last weekend. Started with my first Deepavali lunch at uncle P's house in Seremban. The puree was really really delicious. So yummylicious I rate 9 out of 10. The remaining 1 point is due to its lack of crisp as it turns cold. It must be eaten piping hot.

Saturday saw my first Levi's jeans since I turned adult. My last pair was 15 years ago and I can tell you, I didn't know it was a Levi's till I hit puberty and grew out of that pair. Only did I realize it was a good pair of Levi's till I saw it on my sister. Tsk tsk. Anyway it was a good buy because after converting back to SGD, it only cost $118 and it was the new Lady Style that I bought.

Also bought accessories, lingerie and makeup and a pair of heels. I was supposed to get a pair of black heels but heck, didn't. Instead, saw a pair of pink one and grabbed it coz it's cheap. Only RM35! Tell me, how do I resist such temptations?

Anyway, tickets to Phantom of the Opera next year has been bought. YAY! I am excited. My first play in Esplanade. So "atas"! :P

Could not get back to Singapore yesterday because of my (first) stupidity. Missed the bus. I thought my bus was scheduled at 3.30 but hell, no. When I opened the ticket at 3.10pm, only did I realize the bus was supposed to go off at 3pm. Heck! In the end, had to take cab back this morning.

Really, so many firsts.

New Blast for the New Working Week.

Visited my hair stylist yesterday with shum and I came back with a (slightly) newer style and a new colour. Great, I like it! :) She went home with a better-managed hair (I hope?). Hee hee.

Tomorrow is another new working week. Feel that the days have flew by and weeks just bypass me. Never feel like this before. Is it because I've work to busy myself with, friends to keep me by the bay?

Past one to two weeks were good because I managed to squeeze in time for friends and my life.

Uncle's wife gave birth to a baby girl 4 days ago and I was amazed and terrified of the small wonder because I've never seen such a small baby. In the past, I can only see my siblings that small through the glass in the hospital. Now, I see the baby girl without anything between us. It's just weird.

Time crawl by when I have nothing to do. Time crawls by on Sundays which is good because that meant I can enjoy more oblivion hours and more sleeps and naps. Naps are good. They're energy boost. :)

First.

Colleague t pointed out my FIRST white hair this evening. It's a BIG blow to me because I inherited my dad's hair which has the characteristics below:

1. oily
2. fine
3. skimpy (I say skimpy because I have very little hair)
4. brownish in colour (Discipline mistress always questioned my hair colour back in secondary & primary schools)

Seeing the above, daddy doesn't have a strand of white till now. He's over 45. But his girl here has one! What the...! I always kept quiet when some of my friends lament that they have white hair, etc. I just zip up, you know! Now?

Tell me how heart-breaking can this get. I don't have much crowning glory left and the bit that's left is gradually changing. Already don't have much hair. White hair grows out, I pluck, what hair do I have left?!?!?!

Restless Start.

Super restless at work today. Didn't feel like working and got so fidgety throughout the day. Even playing games online didn't help kill boredom. Not that I have so much free time but I just didn't feel like moving a limb. Much less talk. Temper was short and almost flew all over the office. Must have woke up at the wrong side of the bed.

You, Me & Dupree was quite a disappointment but there was no choice as we've booked the ticket yesterday. Hmm if not for Kate Hudson, I wouldn't think twice.

I so badly need cash because I plan to visit my hair stylist next Saturday, going KL for a spree in 2 weeks' time and plan to get a new laptop next March. All these need $$$.

On the other hand, I've got something exciting waiting for me next March or April other than the PC fair. *Gleeful smile*

My Weekend.

This weekend was spent in a very nice manner. Haven't had such nice & happy weekend in ages. Friday was dinner at Cha Cha Cha, Mexican restaurant and then drinking with fei, frog & (boyf) jasper, shum and teo at C.H.I.J.M.E.S. Hoegaarden is oh-so-smooth. Nice finish to my Friday-night-Saturday-dawn.

VivoCity was a disappointment when only half of the mall is open and there were so many people. The management's own people were irritating going on some mobile thingie and doing some quirky dance. To and fro Harbourfront and VivoCity made us very tired. Eventually j went home and the 3 of us headed to Chinatown and I got a top and bottom and finally retired to Spinelli's and then dinner "feast" in a hawker centre.

In the end, no feast because Hokkien mee was nowhere in sight and popiah was finished. Such a big hawker centre, only has ONE pathetic popiah stall. Stupid!

Nevertheless, it was an enjoyable weekend and here I am now, retiring to my bed.

Some Things Never Change.

Had MSN multiple parties conversation with 3 of the cut6 yesterday night. I realized that some things never change. For example:

1. comatosezzz never fails to be alert.
2. comatosezzz is easily cheated.
3. We can still pull off cheating tricks despite cellmate, ma nee princess and me being apart.
4. We still embrace each other like yesteryears. (BLEK! This sounds disgusting!)
5. We still remember each other's birthdays.
6. We are awaiting for cellmate's return to resume cut6's idiosyncrasies.

Hey, that's cut6's 6 reasons for you! :)

I am blooging so early in the morning because I have a super early appointment with client at 9.30 am. Yes, it's super early by my standard. I'd normally fix it at 10am though the client's 15 mins away from my home. Hee. :P

However, this client is new. It's the existing client's colleague whom was referred to us. Not sure if this is good or bad. Sighs. Alright, got to get ready.

Till the next post...

A Slight Improvement.

From being very late despite the 30mins allowance, I managed to get into office early yesterday morning at 9.15am!! :) A great improvement from my normal 9.35am - 9.45am. To top it off, my designer, w who is in by 9.10am isn't even in office yet! Yay!! Double yay!!

zeroimpact, I need no wake up call(s) now. Hee. The air in this lil' island these days are atrocious. You can just get pissed by staring out the window. Not that I stare out of the window all day but hey, I go out for lunch, meet client, etc. For those who know me, I am one who is very much dependent on the weather. Should the weather be sunny, I'd be up and running, being the energetic and crazy me. If weather is otherwise, you'd see me glum and cranky. Weird? Temperamental, I'd say.

Colleague t says we should go VivoCity this Saturday to peek-a-boo. Yes, quite some hype has been going on about this new place and I don't want to be the "mountain tortoise". Though I have to control my spending because I'd be off to KL for a shopping spree during the Deepa-raya holidays with family. Thanks to Mum who had no better idea of where and what to do for our hols.

I badly need donations. Any kind souls who are kind-hearted enough to donate in kind, please drop me a tag or comment and I will contact you directly. Thanks.

In Lalaland.

I am not trying to paint a good picture in my life but I'd like to have it ideal, that's all. Looking around, there's no "perfect" relationship, family and friends.

However, I'd say they can be, to a certain extent. It requires effort and hard work. An example, I was talking to my colleague, I realized that I am very fortunate because my parents respect us as much as we do to them. They don't treat us like a kid, reprimanding everytime.

Take my neighbour two doors away. I hear the mum screaming (yes, literally; how else do you think I could hear her?) at the son every other day, resulting the son's fear to go home. I bumped into the son while I was coming home one evening. Tsk tsk.

I still believe there's a "perfect" relationship and "ideal" family. Perfect and ideal are according to my standards. :)

No, I'm not in some dreamland nor am I in lalaland.