The End of 2005.

I started the end of the year with something meaningful. Finally decided to STOP being lazy and just get my butt cracking. Went to the gym with j, for first time trial. Good workout but the membership fees ain't good. :(

After that it was lunch at McDonalds (so much for going to gym). The new chicken rice burger is so-so. Mos Burger is definitely still the leader. It was random shopping with the cellmate. Ended at Chinatown for our fragrances. Her DKNY's Be Delicious and my Ralph Lauren's Cool. Ah, nice nice. But my pocket's burnt, too. :(

I ended this 2005 with a fall on my back. It was a shock to both of us! My goodness!! Strangely, it wasn't painful.

I just got home and received 2 cards which I can recognize the handwriting: from the men-to-be. zhiggy's letter touched me. I'm truly grateful for a friend like him.

December 2005 is a cursed month for me. Things haven't been smooth at work, which leads to stress and inconsistent flaring of temper and etc. I'm just so glad that it's over. OVER!!

Lo and behold!!! Happy 2006, my beloved readers! =)

Italianised.

Lunch at Ricotti after the shoot and it was Carbonara for dinner. I've been Italianised, I felt!!

Anyway, I thoroughly enjoyed the photoshoot today despite feeling that I'm dispensable at the shoot. The AE need not be there, actually because the Art Director and the client are communicating most of the time. The only perk up is the cute producer (who need not be there because his role is almost like mine). We, girls (me, AD & talent) were swooning over him whenever we could, even in the ladies. *Rolls eyes*

Over lunch, I felt that there are many things to learn from the working adults. Not that I am not one of them but I don't feel ahemadultahem yet leh. Boss has decided to switch accounts. 1 for 2. Yeah, you can say I have better life now that I only handle 1 account whilst I pass 2 over to j. But...but...but...nobody asked if I liked the arrangement!!

Well, I DON'T!! Simply because, the accounts she switched are is the FMCG and kids' medical health. I don't care (so much) for the latter but those who know me, will know how much I loveeeeee working on FMCGs. FYI, FMCG=Fast Moving Consumer Goods. I like the adrenaline rush, the vibe, the pace, etc. After the shoot, I realized there's nothing I want more than this one.

I feel like an idiot, saying "Yes" to whatever the bosses said. I don't have an opinion to voice. I don't have the liberty to say "No". I am like a conveyor belt, just going to and fro between the agency and client, without value-adding.

So, I've made up my mind to voice out my desires, my needs (to learn), my wants. I was going to talk to boss today but she was so busy and I could not catch her at a good time.

Urgh, this is frusfrating!!!

A reply to my previous post as to why I'm so upset: eu, it's just work-related problem. I've sorted it out and I've made my decision. =) But thank you for your care.

Upset.

Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset. Upset.

Depression may sink in any time.

Gleeful Boxing Day.

Happy Boxing Day, readers. (If there're readers, still.) The day started with a hearty MacDonald's Big Breakfast late morning. aunt sp then called and asked if we wanted to go to the beach or to Chronicles of Narnia. The kids, of course chose the latter. They've been pestering me for the past weekend!!

So, your truly here had to rush down to town to get the tickets. Why? Because your truly has no credit or debit card to book online. -_- So, who's going to sponsor me a credit card? I prefer credit card than debit. Hehe.

Anyway, it was to ECP after that because I was going to get my skates!! WHEE!! Finally, after a long wait of about 1.5-2 months. I am finally getting them. With aunt sp, of course! She's my walking ATM. :P Hehe.

So, when am I going to start my first lesson, official? No idea. Depends when she's getting her paycheck. Haha.

The Right Time.

The Christmas weekend was spent, well, very Christmasie.

Thursday was potluck dinner with the polymates. Thank you, everyone. For making time and effort to come down. With all the food some more! I really appreciate you all for going through the hassle of whipping up something. :) And Norman who bothered coming. THANKS, EVERYONE!!

Friday was company dinner at Prego. Had the cod fish with soft shell crab with asparagus (Ok lah, I don't remember the Italiano nome, so can only provide the description) and with a choice of red/ white wine. I chose the former. Good, I didn't get as lobster red as I would usually. After which was yummylicious dessert. *Makes a slurping sound*

Eve was dinner with family & the traditional Christmas pudding. Whoa! Good stuff!! The dinner was a simple family spread by my dear grandma. Oh superliciously fantabulous!! Ooh...

Today it's a first step for myself because we went to church. For the first time on Christmas. Went there to "look see, look see" (as Mum put it).

Which of the items above that I enjoyed the most? I'd say the red wine. 'Coz I like to drink. Red wine. Wished aunt bh is still here, we'd drink almost every night. It's good for health! I like it when I get a lil' high. It's when I feel that all troubles are slowly lifted off me. Oh, nice feeling.

I'm now looking forward to January 10th because that's when we're celebrating the 1st anniversary together on the virtual world. As mushy as it sounds, I still want to say:

Cut6, I love you!!

Again.

Again, I am blogging out of home. Don't have to spell out directly where I am now. Looking at the time, you, readers should know.

Again, I don't have much to do. Hence, decided to make a lil' noise on my online diary. Seems that my recent post don't attract much hustle bustle.

Again, I think I am falling sick. My hands feel cold though I'm in jacket and I turned off the air-cond. I've been sneezing a lot and wake up every morning with throat irritation.

Again, I cannot wait for tonight for it's going to be a partyyyyyyyy with cut6 & f4 & a special guest. :)

Conspiracy.

I've been asked to be in a conspiracy with a friend of mine. Tsk tsk, bitch you! :P Heh heh. This is hard, having to keep mum about something that everyone should share the joy. Urgh!!

In any case, I'm a happy contributor to the Singapore retail industry over the weekend. Mum is calculating now and we have come to a conclusion that we've about $1,000 over 3 days. *Gasp*

All the kids' CNY shopping's done. Mum's share's almost done. As for mine, I didn't get the dress I wanted because the display piece was the last piece. Urgh!!! However, I did buy a jacket (very happy and satisfied with it), 3 eyeshadow (AGAIN!!) and some other stuffs to pamper myself. No, no apparel this time.

Boss has been thinking that I've been slacking. Like the Malay idiom says, "new broom" (penyapu baru) - initially as a newbie, I'm very good but have been slacking as days pass by. But...do you expect me to stay in office till 8pm with nothing to do? Hello, if this is how you think I should be then I think you're wrong. We should emphasize on quality, not quantity. During office hours, I do constructive work. Alright??!!

I'm sick of arguing with you for you're the boss and you have final say. As days go by, I feel that creativity is indeed stifled.Here.

Power Booster.

I borrowed my energy from them. It worked! At least, I didn't fall asleep in the cinema just now. Or was it because Potter and his friends were too exciting to fall asleep? The last 2 movies, Exorcism & Perhaps Love was a tad too slow for me, hence I drifted into slumberland.

Anyway, I've decided. I wake up to two choices everyday - be positive OR be negative to the start of your day. I've chosen the former because I've people who are concerned for me and I've very good friends (becksy & giggsy. ;D) who genuinely care and worry for me.

I will hold my head up high and walk again. Of course, I have to be wary of hole(s) in front of me so as not to walk right into them. I've always the tendency to "bump" into things when I don't look to the front at the right time. Hmm.

I feel like a new life when I got into office today and decided to not dwell in my mistakes. Instead, rectify and press on!! YEAH! *Does a lil' dance* So yup. I'm going to wake up and be a Miss Happy. Though I have to don on my bulletproof vest because a certain client lurvesssss pulling her trigger at me. Ah, well. Such is life.

I cannot wait for Friday when my mummy and the siblings are coming. I'm so excited because it means shopping with my ma and that equates fun, in case you don't know. She's the most happening mother I can ask for. :)

On a yucky note, SPH have been nice enough to send ALL their clients (accredited ad agencies) a Christmas gift. We're no exception though we're lil' bean sprout (xiao tou ya in Chinese). However xiao, we're still a client. Yes. But the Ritz apple strudel that we had smelled funny and a lil' alcoholic. If it's not alcoholic, then it's the smell of it has turned bad! Boss amazingly finished everything on her plate then came to us and said, "Don't you all think it smells funny?" *Speechless* I only took the crust and threw the filling, but my stomach is already telling me I shouldn't be greedy. I know but I'm a sucker for pastry crust!

Slowly.

I'm slowly losing interest.
I'm slowly losing patience.
I'm slowly losing focus.
I'm slowly hating to go to work.
I'm slowly being oblivious to my surroundings.
I'm slowly begining to not perform up to my expectations.
I'm slowly hitting the ground.

I'm no longer the eagle soaring high in the sky.

The Hectic, Delighted & Surprised Week.

Hectic at work because there're so many things on my plate and I cannot seem to put them in order and finish them.

Delighted because of this: "(my name), good job! You're the best from (my agency's name) so far that I've come across." Client commented but boss didn't say a word. (?!) Compliments are hard to come by so I think I must have done well. But, always keep yourself humble and strive to be better. I am, I am.

Surprised because (I swear if I had heart attack, I'd be dead two times today) the evil twin dropped me a message on MSN this morning saying she's back. I thought she'd only be back next Monday! I'm pleasantly surprised. :) And two, cellmate is back. I thought she'd be happily picking grapes but no, she decided it's too boring and flew back.

I thought I must be dreaming so I called her and yes, the true, blue meano picked up her phone. As usual, we started yakking for an hour or so about nonsensical things. Some things really never change. We can still talk about something that's absolutely fictitious, in a straight face. Great actresses, aren't we? We should be up for the Best Actress Award at the Star Awards Oscar. We very much deserve it.

Alright, I should be off to bed.

Reminiscence.

I was looking through my own photo album on the laptop and I was reminded of many fond memories. A few nights ago, I was thinking about the cut6 members.

How we braved the storm and came through the 3 years. How we settled the differences and managed to pull by every project. How we managed to contain every small little arguments and prevented them from becoming big, volcanic eruptions.

How we always laugh at other people and remind ourselves not to be like them. How we imitate other people and do it ALL the time, whether in tutorials, lectures or outside. How we always embarass ourselves but always laugh it off anyway.

How we....and the list goes on. Aii...how I miss those times. *Sob sob*

Dilemma.

I'm happy because The King sent me an invitation to go back for the Career Talk on this Wednesday. I'm not (very) happy because I'll be going back alone (without any of my kaki; because they aren't in advertising/PR line or the ones that are, cannot make it). *Heaves a sigh*.

And, the ones going back are those that I wasn't very close to. They're more "Hi-Bye" classmates (some) of mine. Eh, wait. "Hi-Bye"?? They were hardly in class! Playing MIA all the time. FYI, MIA is Missing In Action. Like my boss who likes to MIA most of the days of a week.

In any case, like I said in the opening para, I'm happy because I'm going back to school. On the other hand, I'm not very elated. It's such a dilemma, isn't it? I'm always in a dilema nowadays.

Christine's coming tomorrow and I promised her shopping. I'm so broke and it's only the begining of the month. Today alone, as of 1 p.m., I've bombed myself by splurging $70 in clothes and $30 on grocery. What the heck, how can anyone spend so much on grocery when everything should be bought and made ready since she lives with her gramps? I tell you why.

I lurveeeeee grocery shopping and there was never a time whereby grocery shopping is a less-than-5-minutes affair. I love walking down ALL the isle in Cold Storage and look at various products. Be it the packaging or the contents. I love chocolates, chips, juices, alcohol drinks, frozen food, sundries, EVERYTHING, ANYTHING!! Pretty soon, I'll pop by Jasons supermarket to get their Christmas pudding. I was strolling there with fy the other day and spotted the pudding. Oh, heavenly!!!

Talking about food, we're planning our Christmas dinner at my place. Potluck, it shall be since both meanest and I are soooo sick of thinking where to eat and asking the rest for their opinions. It's our decision, ultimately. So we call the shots this time. Yeah.

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I'm a rather disgruntled person as of now because of the various reasons below:

(1) I've so many things to do on Monday. Boss had to send me an email to remind me. Shoots.
(2) With so many things to do, I've to deliver the material for one of our client's magazine ad to
the publisher and to go to another client's office to pass her some CDs.
One word to sum it all: SIAN!!

Alright, looks like I've bored my readers. Sorry and thanks for reading up to the last full stop.

One Wish From Life.

What more can we ask for?